Almost Christmas Break!

It’s the week before Christmas break and I am feeling absolutely tuckered out! It’s been a wonderful couple of days though, so at least the exhaustion is absolutely worth it.

Every year from the school, we get a nice little Christmas hamper. This year, the kids were at two different schools and we got two of them. So one day, we had to go pick one up and the next day, one got dropped off. Needless to say, my cupboards and freezer are totally stocked and the gifting burden will be a little less. It’s always great to get the extra help even if it does mean we end up with two or three turkeys… ūüėČ

The older kids will be going to their Dad’s again this year. I say almost every year that I’m not going to send them, because I want the holiday with them, but then I realize how much I could use the break. And we still celebrate our own Christmas together, so we’re not missing out on anything. I wouldn’t say that we have any “traditions” save for opening presents, but we always do something special.

This time around, we started letting kids open presents tonight and we plan to do one each night until they leave. They are beyond excited about this idea and tore into those first gifts with so much excitement.

Kaeidyn had gone to the store at her school and got everyone presents and she desperately wanted everyone to open one of her gifts. She got Kenzie and Keirnan a board/card game that kept them busy half the night and Carter got a giant drawing/cutting book that he was at first really unimpressed with (because he thought it was homework…), but then proceeded to spend the next two hours drawing in. The Boyfriend got two work shirts and my beautiful daughter got me a wicked ugly Christmas sweater and a CD filled with jazzy holiday songs.

I have the best 11-year-old daughter ever! Got me an #UglyChristmasSweater ūüėČ

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But probably the biggest present that she gave us parents was a report card with all A’s and B’s. We were a little concerned that the transition from elementary school to middle school might’ve been rough on her grades, but it turns out that she’s doing awesome! Kaeidyn always gives me so many reasons to be proud of her but today just topped the cake! I’m so lucky to have that kid ūüėČ

Tomorrow night, we go to the boys’ Christmas concert. After listening to them all practice, I’m pretty excited about it and it’ll be the first year that Kaeidyn is sitting in the audience with us and not standing up on stage performing. As far as we know, she¬†doesn’t even have a concert this year… I’m hoping it won’t be too crazy hectic because it usually is and that always makes me anxious. I can basically guarantee that I’m going to cry!

Friday is a short day of school. Saturday, the older kids have a birthday party to go to and Sunday, we’re driving them out to their Dad’s. And then, the plan is to get my house spotless while it’s just Carter at home.

It’s the Stuck in a Rut Blues…

I am stuck in a writing rut! I have written a ridiculous amount of content that will essentially be trashed because it is such a disorganized mess that I can barely remember what I was trying to do. I’ve been having a hard time writing what I want to write and instead tend to go off on these little tangents that lead nowhere and I basically keep saying the same things over and over again. And tonight, I am putting my foot down and forcing myself to complete at least one post and publish it!

So, here goes it…

The countdown to Christmas is officially on. One minute, I’m okay with it. The next minute, I am sighing and throwing my hands up because I feel so utterly overwhelmed by it. Alfie wants to take the kids again this year and even though I said last year and the year before and all the years before that that it wasn’t going to happen this year, I ended up saying yes. I thought I would feel worse about it but it’s actually bringing me a great deal of relief to think that we’ll only have to do Christmas with Carter.

Thank goodness for The Boyfriend too around this time, because he absolutely takes over the Christmas shopping. He gets such a kick out of shopping for toys and knows exactly what the kids are talking about when they say they want “this” and “that” thing. Really, I don’t know why I despise these holidays so much when basically everyone around me takes over everything that would typically be my responsibility. Luckily, I am aware of how incredibly blessed I am!

The kids are all doing really great and it’s weird that I don’t have more complaints about them. But they’ve been seriously amazing lately. Yeah sure, they’re still kids and I know that Kaeidyn’s gotten in trouble a few times over the last couple of days because of her attitude, but for the most part, it’s been awesome with them. Everyone has been super cuddly lately, they’ve all been helping a lot with the cleaning (even if they are making destructive messes everywhere everyday… They at least help clean it up!), and I’ve even gotten a couple nights this week off of making dinner because Kaeidyn and Kenzie have been enjoying making it!

Although, now that I read back over the last two paragraphs, I realize that I have been incredibly lazy this last little while. No real surprise there, especially being that it’s winter. And let’s not kid ourselves, I realize that I’m lazy every single day! But I’ve definitely noticed I’ve been more lazy lately. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I haven’t slept at night for weeks now. Both The Boyfriend and I have been on the graveyard shift – him because it’s his job, me because I tend to do whatever he does where sleep is concerned. So, he sleeps during the day, I end up sleeping during the day. He’s awake all night, I end up being awake all night.

As it is, it’s 4:30 in the morning and neither of us seems to be anywhere near ready for bed…

I’ve been kicking myself in the butt hard about this sleep schedule. As someone who has suffered with sleep problems for over a decade, I know what I’m supposed to be doing to combat them. Straight up though, I have never slept better than I have been sleeping lately – it’s just terrible when it comes to the hours that I’m awake. And not because I’m tired during those hours, it’s just that I’m incredibly lazy during those hours. Like, I simply do not have the energy or desire to do anything.

And it’s especially bad when I get on the computer. Normally, I get on here and within minutes, I’ve found something to do – what that something is is different every time, but I find something. Lately, I get on here and five hours later, I realize that I’ve done nothing but reload the page I’m on over and over again. Maybe I’ve clicked around and typed up a paragraph of rambles or played the level I’ve been stuck on for over a year on Candy Crush Saga a few times, but mostly, I’ve just stared at the page, reloading, stuck in this damnable rut!

Breakfast with Santa 2015

Breakfast with Santa 2015

Before the weekend, I got a call from Kaeidyn’s school. It sounded all official, so I sat up in bed concerned, only to learn that Kaeidyn had been given a bunch of tickets to go to the Festival of Trees and Breakfast with Santa. So, a few days later, we were heading out to do that.

The kids were all beyond excited. For Carter, he had never actually met Santa before – we’ve always been working and been super busy around this time of year and the whole visiting the mall to get pictures taken with Santa just hasn’t worked out. So, it was his first year and he was nervous and giddy and it was absolutely adorable.

The Breakfast with Santa was a lot of fun and the kids spent the whole thing talking all things Christmas. The Boyfriend was so happy to see bacon at the breakfast and I had a cup of tea for the first time in years and it was delicious!! And then, they turned the music on…

We all got up and danced around for a bit. I’m always sad that this doesn’t happen more often because it’s honestly some of the most fun we ever have as a family. The kids all like to compare moves and somehow the parents always really get into and while we all know we probably look like a bunch of dorks, none of us seems to care for a second. There are just not enough opportunities for family dancing!

Then, we waited in line for what seemed like forever to go take a picture with Santa. No one could stand still because they were all just so excited and the longer we stood, the less still they were. I was so relieved when we finally made it up to Santa, because the kids had just gotten to that point of reaching their anticipation limit Рwhere they go from restless to just misbehaved.

Carter was so hesitant to get up close to Santa. They had been given candy canes and Carter shyly offered one to Santa as the other kids tried to push him in closer to get picture ready. Everyone took their place around Santa and the kids, all like little professional models, turned to the camera with their greatest smiles and it was such a nice little moment for us. Especially The Boyfriend, who had never experienced the whole first-visit-with-Santa thing.

We went down to Mom’s immediately after the breakfast, which was way earlier than we normally go down for Sunday dinners, which means that I watched more football today that I ever have in my entire life! After filling up on breakfast, we were being served a great lunch/dinner and tons of appetizers and having a generally great time – save for a few little arguments here and there – which isn’t an abnormal occurrence when you get two pretty strong-minded Scorpios in a room ūüėČ

The day absolutely tuckered us all out though, completely. Kenzie fell asleep at Mom’s. Then, when we got home, both the parents ended up dozing off on the couch as Carter curled up in blankets on floor and fell asleep. Kaeidyn went to bed almost a whole hour earlier than her bedtime. The only one who didn’t seem massively exhausted from our adventures today was Keirnan.