The Last Week or So…

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It’s been a very long and entirely unproductive week…

We had two Christmas dinners to go to this year, which were incredibly delicious. First night was a turkey night and the second night was a bacon-wrapped steak night. Both nights were amazing and hanging out with all the family was really great.

The big highlight of our week was The Boyfriend’s four days off. It went by way too fast and four days really felt like two, but I always love having him in bed with me. Although, for some reason, this whole week, every time I sleep I end up getting ridiculously hot and so our usual comfortable and cuddly sleep was more like tossing and turning and keeping each other awake.

Carter’s been so talkative since the older kids left. I’m finding the super constant talkativeness to be incredibly annoying this time around and have to keep reminding myself that he’s not trying to annoy me. He’s just sharing… Every single thing! I don’t think I’ve ever heard him talk as much as he has been lately and I probably wouldn’t find it so annoying if he talked about more than just two or three things. I can’t wait for the older kids to get back so that he has other ears to talk off.

I had all these big plans to get tons of cleaning done while the kids were gone and for the most part, I’ve failed miserably. We did have two solid days of really great cleaning and it was productive, but it wasn’t the degree of cleaning I was hoping to get done. We also got another new mop, this time with steam, to see if that will do our floors better or easier or something. We still have some time before the kids get back, so I imagine it’ll all get done, at some point.

I’ve been playing a lot of video games lately. The Boyfriend was all “try out Fallout 4” and I did and ended up falling in love with it. His second day off must’ve been especially boring, because I stole the game from him when he went to get coffees and didn’t let him back on all day! Then, I’ve been checking in on The Sims 4 stuff almost every other day, although I haven’t been playing The Rayne’s at all. Just random characters or attempting to build.

I’ve been having some knee pain lately, which hasn’t happened very often in the last few weeks. It’s been pretty insistent the last two weeks and I’ve spent a bunch of time complaining. Then, on and off (although more on over the last couple of days), I’ve been having a pain in my breast. I can’t really describe the pain in either of those places, except by saying that it sucks! Thank goodness I have the world’s greatest boyfriend, who will spend hours rubbing my knees and breasts, never once complaining about all my complaining ūüėČ

Well, that’s basically all that’s happening around here. A whole lot of nothing. We’re planning on picking the kids up in about a week, which I’m excited about and then it’ll be back into the swing of school and all that other fun stuff.

Our Favorite Sex Positions

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When The Boyfriend and I first started dating, he was a big fan of doing every weird and crazy position you could think of. In a typical sex session, he would probably cycle through a good six or seven wildly different positions and you’d walk away from it with your mind blown a little bit by the variety.

A few months into our relationship, I got pregnant and had a lot of severe joint pain that affected the way in which I could be moved and we had to greatly modify our repertoire from a huge selection of positions to a handful. He was also incredibly fearful of hurting me and/or the baby, especially being that I’m known for complicated pregnancies, so the sex became less about variety and more about intimacy.

After my joint pain left, or at least subsided dramatically, we basically stuck with the handful of positions. I think partly because we’re both incredibly comfortable in those positions and we’ve mastered the art of mostly mutual orgasm in these positions. There are, of course, a bunch of reasons why we prefer these positions over the hundreds of others that we could select from, especially when we speak of each one individually. So, without further adieu…

Our Favorite Positions

  1. Deck Chair

    Our absolute favorite position and the one we use absolutely and by far the most is missionary with him on top. While we vary up the missionary a lot when he’s up there, in terms of precise positioning, there are some things that are almost always the same.

    He is likely to have his face buried in my neck or breasts, I’m likely to have my right hand on my clit and chances are, my legs are up around his hips. Sex in this position is often wordless and there is a lot of watching the other person going on. He looks down on me and I look up at him. Often, missionary sex for us is typically very loving and intimate, even when he’s pounding into me like a jackhammer!

  2. Spoons

    We are both normally pretty exhausted in terms of overall energy. Life very much takes every ounce of energy out of us, but we both want to have sex so badly. Sometimes, you’re just too lazy to work for sex. And so we spoon!

    Wake up sex is almost always spooning sex and again, we’ll sometimes do little things to switch up the positions. If I’m going to orgasm, I’ll often throw my leg up over him. Every once and awhile, because he loves it so much, I’ll pull my knees in tight to my chest and make myself into a tiny little ball. I’d say just a little bit more than half of the time, this position will turn into missionary.

  3. Doggystyle

    Again, we’re lazy people. When I’m on my hands and knees, its not really on my hands and knees. It’s more on my shoulders and knees, because I’m likely to have my head on my pillow and my ass in the air. Generally, this is a rougher sex position for us and is only used when he’s in the mood to be rough.

    I think there’s a lot of things we like about this position but for both of us, I think it tends to feel like kinkier sex because it is generally rougher. He’s likely to be very instructive in this position and we both get a kick out of that. My favorite thing about this one though is the ability for his hands to grab at flesh, because I just feel like that doesn’t happen enough.

  4. Cowgirl

    I’m not a huge fan of being on top. I mean, I like it a lot more now than I ever have in the past, but it’s still not my most favorite position. I feel awkward and uncoordinated for the most part when I’m on top and sometimes, I’m okay with that, but other times, I just feel it. So, it’s the least used of our favorite positions.

    However, The Boyfriend will take this one over any other any day. It is, without a doubt, his favorite position. When I’m on top, it’s almost always slow sex, in comparison to what we’re normally doing when he’s in charge. It also tends to be more sensual, more about kissing, more about hands all over one another, more about gazing into each other’s eyes. And while that sounds incredibly cheesy, it’s reality.

While we have a lot more positions that we are likely to use, these are the main ones. At least one of these positions is sure to be included in every sexperience, even when we’re trying to be experimental. So now I’m curious, what are your favorite sex positions? Would you say that it’s been different with every person you’ve been with or do you generally have a favorite position? What is your favorite thing about your favorite position? Let’s talk sex positions!!

Down Three Kids

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Well, we dropped the three older kids off yesterday. The drive out to Leduc was nice and the highways were clear. The kids were all pretty tired, so they mostly dozed or sat quietly in the back. Even though we got lost in Leduc (mainly because The Boyfriend and I never trust my navigating instincts – mainly because I’ve proven I suck at it), it was a good time and the kids were all super excited to get to go to their Dad’s, or in Carter’s case, get rid of the kids.

The Boyfriend went to sleep once we got home because he had to work that night and my plan was to stay up with Carter. About an hour later, I was dozing off on the couch while Carter played games. He must’ve realized how tired I was because he sat down quietly next to me and let me nap for the next two hours and it was beautiful. Then we had my brother over and Carter had a great night hanging out with Uncle.

Today, The Boyfriend and I ended up sleeping basically the entire day away. Just couldn’t wake ourselves up for anything. Luckily, my brother stuck around and played with Carter and it was a generally great sleep. I feel a lot more rested now than I have in a while.

Honestly, I’ve been feeling all sorts of exhausted, all the time. It doesn’t help that I’m not eating properly, not getting out of the house enough, basically not taking very good care of myself AND that my sleep schedule has shifted from normal to graveyard. I’ve been finding it very hard to fall asleep any earlier than six in the morning, even when I head up to bed hours earlier. And while this is the most routine sleep schedule that I’ve been on in years, I can just feel it kicking my ass.

Once I’m awake, I just don’t want to do anything, at all. Motivating myself to do any of the things that I’m supposed to be doing is incredibly difficult right now. All I want to do is wrap myself up in warmth and veg. And I spend all of that time that I’m vegging, beating myself up for not doing all the things that I’m supposed to be doing. Of course, instead of just getting up off my ass and doing those things, I just sit there down-talking myself and my actions. It’s unproductive and adds to the exhausted feeling.

In other, less depressing news, we’ve got big plans to get the house cleaned while we’re down three kids. I’ve already decided that we’re taking a portion of our gift cards to get ourselves a device that will make our floors easier to clean. We’ve been using mops but we haven’t been able to find one that works good enough. So, I want to look for other options for getting these floors clean. I’m also hoping that we’ll finally take all the broken or unused pieces of furniture to the dump, because it’s been on my to-do list all year and¬†it’s absolutely time. We can’t start replacing all the crap stuff until we get rid of it!

I’m not sure how long the kids are going to be gone at this point. I like to play it by ear instead of setting a specific date. Sometimes, I end up missing the kids a lot and want them back sooner. Sometimes, plans get made and it’s easier to have them stay longer. Sometimes, their Dad needs to send them home earlier or wants to keep them an extra couple days. Sometimes, the weather is bad. So, we play it by ear. I know it’s going to be at least a week and The Boyfriend has a couple of those days off, so we should be able to go all of my cleaning to-do list done and I’m quite excited about it.

But for today, he has one night off and for him, that means it’s a gaming night. I’m glad to have him distracted right now because for the last couple of nights, all he’s wanted to do is talk about is Star Wars. While I have great respect for Star Wars and would consider myself a fan, I’m nowhere near obsessed as he is and it is incredibly exhausting to “fake” interest. And I put “fake” in quotations because it’s not that I’m faking, it’s that I’m not nearly as interested as he is.

For example, I don’t care enough to watch every trailer before the release of the movie. I figure, I’ll see the movie when it comes out. I don’t care to pick apart those trailers to try to figure out the movie before it’s released. I figure, I’ll see the movie when it comes out and figure it out at that point (and all the times that I watch it after that first time…). However, that stuff is exciting for him and important to his experience. So, I pay attention to what he’s telling me so that I can ask him questions about those interests, “faking” this extreme interest, because it’s important for him to be able to share that experience with me. It’s one of my favorite parts of being me in a relationship, but I sure do love getting a break!

Now I just have to figure out what I’m going to do while he’s gaming it up ūüėČ

#FridayFavorites: For the Week of December 11 – 18

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Favorite Tumblr Find

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Favorite Tweet

In the same week that I got my expansion, The Boyfriend got Fallout 4. I’ve been enjoying playing on and off, but I’ve come to this realization:

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Favorite Instagram Update

There’s a store at Kaeidyn’s school and she¬†decided to get everyone, including the parents, Christmas presents. This year, I got an awesome ugly Christmas sweater!

I have the best 11-year-old daughter ever! Got me an #UglyChristmasSweater ūüėČ

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Favorite YouTube Video

It’s been a constant stream of conversations about Star Wars in the last few weeks in our house as everyone gears up for seeing the seventh movie. We also get a kick out of Jimmy Fallon, so it only makes sense to share:

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Favorite Posts Over the Last Week

In case you might’ve missed them over the last little while, here’s my favorite posts from around here over the last week…

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Almost Christmas Break!

It’s the week before Christmas break and I am feeling absolutely tuckered out! It’s been a wonderful couple of days though, so at least the exhaustion is absolutely worth it.

Every year from the school, we get a nice little Christmas hamper. This year, the kids were at two different schools and we got two of them. So one day, we had to go pick one up and the next day, one got dropped off. Needless to say, my cupboards and freezer are totally stocked and the gifting burden will be a little less. It’s always great to get the extra help even if it does mean we end up with two or three turkeys… ūüėČ

The older kids will be going to their Dad’s again this year. I say almost every year that I’m not going to send them, because I want the holiday with them, but then I realize how much I could use the break. And we still celebrate our own Christmas together, so we’re not missing out on anything. I wouldn’t say that we have any “traditions” save for opening presents, but we always do something special.

This time around, we started letting kids open presents tonight and we plan to do one each night until they leave. They are beyond excited about this idea and tore into those first gifts with so much excitement.

Kaeidyn had gone to the store at her school and got everyone presents and she desperately wanted everyone to open one of her gifts. She got Kenzie and Keirnan a board/card game that kept them busy half the night and Carter got a giant drawing/cutting book that he was at first really unimpressed with (because he thought it was homework…), but then proceeded to spend the next two hours drawing in. The Boyfriend got two work shirts and my beautiful daughter got me a wicked ugly Christmas sweater and a CD filled with jazzy holiday songs.

I have the best 11-year-old daughter ever! Got me an #UglyChristmasSweater ūüėČ

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But probably the biggest present that she gave us parents was a report card with all A’s and B’s. We were a little concerned that the transition from elementary school to middle school might’ve been rough on her grades, but it turns out that she’s doing awesome! Kaeidyn always gives me so many reasons to be proud of her but today just topped the cake! I’m so lucky to have that kid ūüėČ

Tomorrow night, we go to the boys’ Christmas concert. After listening to them all practice, I’m pretty excited about it and it’ll be the first year that Kaeidyn is sitting in the audience with us and not standing up on stage performing. As far as we know, she¬†doesn’t even have a concert this year… I’m hoping it won’t be too crazy hectic because it usually is and that always makes me anxious. I can basically guarantee that I’m going to cry!

Friday is a short day of school. Saturday, the older kids have a birthday party to go to and Sunday, we’re driving them out to their Dad’s. And then, the plan is to get my house spotless while it’s just Carter at home.

#TheSims4: Introducing The Rayne’s

The Rayne's

The Rayne’s are teen roommates currently residing in Mid-Nowhere: The Rayne’s in Windenburg.

 

Valerie Rayne is a creative music lover whose greatest ambition is to become a Musical Genius. Boyfriend Rayne, who shares the same last name as Valerie but isn’t related to her, is a genius and a geek whose life dream is to be¬†a Nerd Brain.

They’ve already spent some time getting to know one another and becoming best friends. They’ve also hosted the Welcome Wagon and gone to Island Bluffs and the Discotheque, where they did their first ever group dance. Valerie is wearing the red bathing suit and Boyfriend is right in the center.

After their rather eventful week, full of school, homework and entertaining, they decided they needed to wind down and Valerie went to her room and Boyfriend went to his room and they both enjoyed a meditation session that let them level up twice.

Next up for The Rayne’s: While they’re still in school, both Boyfriend and Valerie intend to get jobs as Retail Store Employees. After they’ve held a job for awhile and are doing well in school, the plan is to start exploring clubs. I think we’ll probably have one of them create a club that they both join and then have them each join separate already existing clubs (such as the Paragons or Renegades). The final goal, before they become adults anyways, is to have them begin dating!

Be sure to stay tuned to see what ends up happening to The Rayne’s and the world around them!

And if you’d like to try playing as them, you can find The Rayne’s on The Sims 4 Gallery by searching the Origin ID: ValerieRayne13. I’d love to see someone play them and share their experience with me in the comments below!

#TheSims4: Builds in #Windenburg – Mid-Nowhere: The Rayne’s

Mid-Nowhere: The Rayne's

Mid-Nowhere: The Rayne’s

A smart one-level with near perfect symmetry¬†and plenty of skill-building¬†activities for your Sims. This house was built for “The Rayne’s”. Find them in the Gallery!

Lot:

Mid-Nowhere in Windenburg

Lot Type:

Residential

Lot Size:

20 x 20

Value:

$192, 253

Bedrooms: 2

Bathrooms: 2

Full House: Top Down View
Full House: Top Down View

The Rayne’s currently reside in this house as teenagers. There are two bedrooms with meditation stools and two bathrooms that are divided by a large closet (part of the Get Together expansion pack!). Each bathroom features a jet tub.

The main living area features a variety of skillbuilding and fun-having activities. A bar and espresso station allow your Sims to make beverages for themselves and their visitors. A foosball, game and chess table make up one side of the room and a comfortable seating area makes up the other.

Packs Used

Spa Day Get Together Spooky Stuff Cool Kitchen Stuff

You can find Mid-Nowhere: The Rayne’s¬†on The Sims 4 Gallery. I invite you to download it and place it in your own worlds. If you end up changing things up, I‚Äôd love to see what you come up, so please post links to your changes in the comments below. And while you‚Äôre at it, be sure to follow me by searching for the Origin ID: ValerieRayne13.

It’s the Stuck in a Rut Blues…

I am stuck in a writing rut! I have written a ridiculous amount of content that will essentially be trashed because it is such a disorganized mess that I can barely remember what I was trying to do. I’ve been having a hard time writing what I want to write and instead tend to go off on these little tangents that lead nowhere and I basically keep saying the same things over and over again. And tonight, I am putting my foot down and forcing myself to complete at least one post and publish it!

So, here goes it…

The countdown to Christmas is officially on. One minute, I’m okay with it. The next minute, I am sighing and throwing my hands up because I feel so utterly overwhelmed by it. Alfie wants to take the kids again this year and even though I said last year and the year before and all the years before that that it wasn’t going to happen this year, I ended up saying yes. I thought I would feel worse about it but it’s actually bringing me a great deal of relief to think that we’ll only have to do Christmas with Carter.

Thank goodness for The Boyfriend too around this time, because he absolutely takes over the Christmas shopping. He gets such a kick out of shopping for toys and knows exactly what the kids are talking about when they say they want “this” and “that” thing. Really, I don’t know why I despise these holidays so much when basically everyone around me takes over everything that would typically be my responsibility. Luckily, I am aware of how incredibly blessed I am!

The kids are all doing really great and it’s weird that I don’t have more complaints about them. But they’ve been seriously amazing lately. Yeah sure, they’re still kids and I know that Kaeidyn’s gotten in trouble a few times over the last couple of days because of her attitude, but for the most part, it’s been awesome with them. Everyone has been super cuddly lately, they’ve all been helping a lot with the cleaning (even if they are making destructive messes everywhere everyday… They at least help clean it up!), and I’ve even gotten a couple nights this week off of making dinner because Kaeidyn and Kenzie have been enjoying making it!

Although, now that I read back over the last two paragraphs, I realize that I have been incredibly lazy this last little while. No real surprise there, especially being that it’s winter. And let’s not kid ourselves, I realize that I’m lazy every single day! But I’ve definitely noticed I’ve been more lazy lately. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I haven’t slept at night for weeks now. Both The Boyfriend and I have been on the graveyard shift – him because it’s his job, me because I tend to do whatever he does where sleep is concerned. So, he sleeps during the day, I end up sleeping during the day. He’s awake all night, I end up being awake all night.

As it is, it’s 4:30 in the morning and neither of us seems to be anywhere near ready for bed…

I’ve been kicking myself in the butt hard about this sleep schedule. As someone who has suffered with sleep problems for over a decade, I know what I’m supposed to be doing to combat them. Straight up though, I have never slept better than I have been sleeping lately – it’s just terrible when it comes to the hours that I’m awake. And not because I’m tired during those hours, it’s just that I’m incredibly lazy during those hours. Like, I simply do not have the energy or desire to do anything.

And it’s especially bad when I get on the computer. Normally, I get on here and within minutes, I’ve found something to do – what that something is is different every time, but I find something. Lately, I get on here and five hours later, I realize that I’ve done nothing but reload the page I’m on over and over again. Maybe I’ve clicked around and typed up a paragraph of rambles or played the level I’ve been stuck on for over a year on Candy Crush Saga a few times, but mostly, I’ve just stared at the page, reloading, stuck in this damnable rut!

#FridayFavorites: For the Week of December 4 – 11

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Favorite Tumblr Find

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Favorite Google+ Update

I have been attempting to work on a lot of projects that I was hoping to have done by the New Year – mostly The Erotic Writers Group. But I keep coming up against a brick wall…

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Favorite Tweet

In one night, I watched the entire first season of Big Ballet on Netflix and was immediately drawn to Mistress Monica. For the next two days, all I could think about was how adorable her and JackSepticEye would be together.

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Favorite YouTube Video

Memorable moment: We’re scrolling through our subscriptions on YouTube and Kaeidyn, my 11-year-old daughter says to me, “Please don’t think I’m weird, but can we watch that video“, as I go over SexplanationsSex Toys 101“. I didn’t think she was weird and I still don’t and that’s why we watched the video!

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Favorite Posts Over the Last Week

In case you might’ve missed them over the last little while, here’s my favorite posts from around here over the last week…

  • The Cane
    If you enjoy erotic limericks, then you’ll definitely get a kick out of The Cane. 
  • When the Show Makes You Cry
    Have you ever cried uncontrollably at a show? Which ones got to you? 
  • TO DO: Online
    A partial list of all the things that I need to be doing online, or want to be doing…

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Well, that’s my #FridayFavorites.

I encourage you to follow me wherever you are and if you have favorites that are different than mine, let me know what you loved in the comments below! And be sure to join me next Friday for another installment of #FridayFavorites – what will I find?

The Cane

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The Cane
The Cane – An Erotic Limerick by Valerie Rayne

This erotic limerick originally appeared on Valerie Rayne Writes as a submission to The Erotic Writers Group challenge, #SaturdaySerenade. See the original post.

The Cane

There was an old man named Yoo
Who crafted canes of bamboo
They made the girls shriek
And weren’t for the meek
And if you’re lucky, you’ll get it too

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

There once lived a lady named Jane
Who couldn’t resist the cane
With every hard smack
She rubbed at her crack
And immensely enjoyed the pain

Her lover was gentle yet firm
As her bottom began to burn
She yelped and she cried
It filled him with pride
And then she began to squirm

He hit her hard from behind
She had no places to hide
He had had enough
Was done being tough
And laid down at her side

They wrapped up in each other
And she began to hover
In that mythical place
They call subspace
Protected by her lover

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When the Show Makes You Cry…

Do you ever get really emotionally involved with TV shows or movies? Do you ever feel yourself caring a lot for characters in shows? Do you prefer to find those shows or movies that bowl you over with emotion? 

I tend to be the biggest fan of shows that really hook me into them emotionally. I mean, I determine my rating system on Netflix based off of the emotional response the show gives me. For example, if I cry really hard, I’m likely to give it a 5-star rating. If I don’t cry at all, it’s likely to rate far less.

I think it all started all those years ago when we would all hunker down on Thursday nights to watch ER. When Mark died, our whole family wept and sobbed. It touched my heart beyond belief when Kaeidyn watched ER over a decade after I had seen that episode and was also brought to sobbing tears – and I smiled proudly¬†when she cried the next day when we played “Somewhere Over the Rainbow“, because that’s what good TV does.

Over the years there have been too many memorable moments to name in television and film history as it relates to me. The tears these cheeks have felt over fictional characters over the years would probably astound you, because they have been so numerous. My favorite times are when the emotional response absolutely surprises you.

Great example: Reign Over Me with Adam Sandler. We all know him as this funny guy telling jokes. But this movie had me literally curled up in a ball in a full-out sob session. He’s sitting there in that courtroom and all of a sudden, completely overcome with emotion – both him and me! I think Alfie was terrified that something was wrong with me, because the moment just absolutely broke my heart.

I don’t feel like it’s hard for a show or movie to make me cry – I tend to do it rather easily. But every once and awhile, a show hits a nerve that the emotions attached to that moment are so memorable. Even though they’re emotions shed over fictional moments, they feel like they happened to you, happened to people you love.

Tonight, I started watching The Killing. I haven’t really had much interest in this show, but I’ve run out of episodes on all the other shows that I was watching and needed something to pass the time with. I was a little worried about this show, because I tend to have a hard time watching anything that involves a lot of killing. While I get really into these types of shows, I don’t really like watching them because they change my dreams from just generally confusing to utterly terrifying!

I was really skeptical going into this show but by the end of the first episode I was in shambles. I’m not sure what I think of the story or the characters (haven’t been watching long enough to know…), but the parents of this girl are incredibly relatable and anytime they struggle with their emotions, I find myself struggling with mine. I find that kind of television to be incredibly powerful.

So, What are some of your memorable and emotional TV or movie moments? Have you ever been surprised by your reaction to anything you watched? What was the last show you cried at? Let’s talk TV in the comments!

TO DO: Online

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I’ve spent a lot of time over the last couple of days mindlessly clicking around on the computer, not really sure what to do or where to go. I’ve been writing a lot of posts that aren’t getting finished and I’ve just generally been feeling a huge lack of motivation and inspiration, even though it’s literally staring me in the face!

I think the biggest problem is that there are just so many things that I want to be doing, so many things that I should be doing and so many things that I could be doing, that it’s just a little bit overwhelming. I decided I needed to get the to-do list out of my head so that maybe I can make some progress, any progress…

Things I Want to Be Doing Online:

  • Listening to podcasts

    I subscribe to a few different podcasts always with the thinking that I’m going to listen to, but I just never seem to find the moment or desire to listen to them, so they just sit there piling up on me…

    In a perfect world: I’d love to listen to podcasts live. I’d even be happy with one night a week listening to podcasts. Ideally, I’d spend an hour every night listening to podcasts – since I follow enough to fill up that schedule quickly…

  • Reading articles

    There are so many things to read on the internet. I’ve always wanted to read articles from my favorite blogs and relevant to my interests. And while I’ll occasionally click, the reality is that I’m missing huge amounts of content because I’m not regularly reading those articles.

    In a perfect world: I’d save any articles that I was interested in reading (using something like Pocket) and spend a minimum of an hour every night going over the reading I had saved up for the day.

  • Instagram-ing

    Currently, I post to Instagram and check in on it whenever I post a picture. As those who follow me may notice, I rarely ever post pictures. I’d like that whole entire thing to change!

    In a perfect world: I’d like to take one selfie, one landscape photo and one picture of the kids every single day – that would be ideal for me.

  • Publishing a Book

    This is so high up there on my list right now! I’ve been thinking about it constantly and debating the pros and cons of my options and I just feel like I’m not closer to anything. But, I really want to publish a book and make my first $0.99 sale and the ultimate goal is to one day hold my work in a print book in my hands!

    In a perfect world: By the end of 2016, I’d really like to have a plan to accomplish this goal!

  • Releasing YouTube Videos

    I used to release cover videos on a relatively regular basis, back when I had a guitar. Then, my guitar broke and I basically stopped putting out videos. I miss the good ole days and I’d like to go back to them.

    In a perfect world: More than just covers, I’d like to release a few different kinds of videos. It’d be fun to release vlogs of life with the family, covers and original songs, as well as some things about my biggest interests – sexuality,¬†erotica and The Sims 4. I’m thinking, release a video at least twice a week.

There are, of course, a number of other “goals” I have for online, such as a certain number of Tweets per week or certain types of content on Facebook, for example. However, those aren’t really things that I’d like to be doing so much as things that I’m currently attempting to do – maybe I’ll go into that in a different post. But these are just a few of things that I’d like to be doing online.

#FridayFavorites: For the Week of November 27 – December 4

#FridayFavorites

Ever wanted to be able to see what I’m up to all over the web without actually having to go all over the web? Well, now you can with #FridayFavorites. Join me every Friday to see my favorite finds and posts over the last week.


Favorite Tumblr Find

Everything you find on my Tumblr will be absolutely NSFW and totally intended for adults only! But here’s my favorite PG-13 find from this week and be sure to check out my¬†#TumblrFavorites posts.

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/134109520216/allofmydirtylittlethoughts-jennebenn17

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Favorite Google+ Update

Kaeidyn went to her first ever school dance this week. She looked so beautiful and adorable standing next to her boyfriend at the Winter Formal.

Circle Me on Google+


Favorite Tweet

I’ve been spending some time in a chatroom, as I do every few months, and I’ve attracted a few readers. Love when I reach new view milestones!

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Favorite Instagram Post

We went to the 22nd (if I remember, correctly) Annual Breakfast with Santa with the kids and it was a total blast (see the post below)! This is turning out to be a much better Christmas than I had anticipated it would be.

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Favorite Posts Over the Last Week

In case you might’ve missed them over the last little while, here’s my favorite posts from around here over the last week…

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¬†Well, that’s my #FridayFavorites.

I encourage you to follow me wherever you are and if you have favorites that are different than mine, let me know what you loved in the comments below! And be sure to join me next Friday for another installment of #FridayFavorites – what will I find?

Wake Up Sex

This post is intended for adults 18+

Every night when we lay down to go to sleep together, he puts his hand on my hip or wraps it around my waist. Most of the time, I can feel his fingers mindlessly tracing back and forth as he drifts off to sleep and slowly his fingers go limper and limper until his hand is flatly and comfortably resting.

This particular night, he wrapped his hand about me as usual. His fingers did their limp to flat resting as usual. But instead of putting me to sleep, as it usually does, I could feel myself becoming more and more aroused. His hand rested right below my breast and his finger kept twitching in a way that would just nick my nipple and I’d find myself holding my breath in anticipation for the next twitch.

I sleep with one hand between my legs, warmed by my thighs. I could feel the heat of my arousal permeate down to my hand and I felt the urge to travel upwards. I could tell he was getting closer and closer to being entirely asleep because he was breathing heavier and his hand moved far less. I laid next to him, on our sides, gently rubbing my clit through my pants. I lifted my leg slightly to give myself more room and he took it as the signal to move over. He rolled onto his back and I rolled onto mine and I looked over at him, now more deeply asleep and imagined waking him up with sex.

My whole body loved the idea so much and sweat formed on my brow as I reached beneath my pants.¬†We’ve both talked often about doing this to one another and will often go to sleep saying something like, “And if you wake me up with sex, that’s okay!” and he’s been able to wake me up many time with sex, but I have never had the opportunity. He’s never been sleeping the right way for me to even attempt to do it. And it’s not waking a person up with sex when you say, “Hey, wake up for sex!” – or at least, not in the context that we wanted to be woken up.

I thought about him laying on his back. I watched his chest rise and fall. I wondered if he was dreaming. My curiosity turned to fantasizing and I found myself reaching my fingers out to him. This was my opportunity!

I slowly slid my hand over to him and down his pants. His arm moved and I retracted my hand, not sure if I felt confident enough to be caught. Even though we had said this was okay to do, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to wake him up. But when he settled, I couldn’t resist going in once more.

His cock laid limply on his leg and I lifted it into my palm and gave a gentle squeeze. He moved his legs and I could tell it was because his balls were catching on his thigh. I gave a soft tug and he eased back to sleep. His cock grew slightly and then shrunk back down and I continued to stroke him gently as my other hand played with my clit. As he began to harden, he reached down to rub away the annoying sensation he was feeling in his sleep and I moved my hand away to let him do his thing. He adjusted himself, tossing from side to side a few times as he moved an arm up behind his head. I watched him intently, trying to hold my shaky breath, watching what he might do next. He let out a loud sigh and then returned to his sleep breathing.

I reached back down and his cock was still hard. He had moved just enough so that I could get a really great grip on him and I gave a few quick strokes. I watched him so closely to see if he would react and as I loosened my grip, he turned and looked at me through sleepy eyes. I smiled and he pulled off his pants in one swift motion. I stroked him a few more times as I tried to figure out what to do next, when I swear I heard my vagina scream at me, “Mount him!“.

I quickly crawled on top of him and I was so wet that he slid in with absolute ease. My legs clutched tightly around his hips and my fingers dug into his chest. I sat still on him for a few minutes as I adjusted to the sensation I had so desperately been longing to feel and he watched my face intently to see the slightest reactions. When I leaned forward to kiss him, he wrapped his arms about me and pulled me in close to him.

I began lifting my hips up and very slowly lowering them onto him and he pulled away, not wanting to cum almost immediately after penetration. The slower thrusting always sends him into orgasm territory, so I pushed my breasts into his face and vigorously bounced up and down on him, my hands pushing hard into his chest as he frantically licked and sucked on my nipples.

When he moved his hands down around my ass, it was too much for me and I squeezed tightly with my thighs as a solid wave of orgasm rolled over me. I gripped tightly at anything I could grab and when his hand went up into my hair and pulled it back, I knew he was preparing to orgasm.

With one hand on my ass pushing me down onto his cock and another hand in my hair pulling me upright, he absolutely devoured the view of my bouncing breasts as he quickly thrusted in and out of me. Three deep hard thrusts was the signal that he was orgasming and when he collapsed on the bed, I collapsed on top of him.

Even though we were soaked in sweat, he wrapped his arms around me and held me tight as we both caught our breath. I rolled off of him and laid on my back beside him, “Now, go back to sleep!“, I said with a wide smile and he reached out his arm to pull my head onto his chest. I don’t think it took even two seconds for him to fall back to sleep and I didn’t take long to follow his lead.

Breakfast with Santa 2015

Breakfast with Santa 2015

Before the weekend, I got a call from Kaeidyn’s school. It sounded all official, so I sat up in bed concerned, only to learn that Kaeidyn had been given a bunch of tickets to go to the Festival of Trees and Breakfast with Santa. So, a few days later, we were heading out to do that.

The kids were all beyond excited. For Carter, he had never actually met Santa before – we’ve always been working and been super busy around this time of year and the whole visiting the mall to get pictures taken with Santa just hasn’t worked out. So, it was his first year and he was nervous and giddy and it was absolutely adorable.

The Breakfast with Santa was a lot of fun and the kids spent the whole thing talking all things Christmas. The Boyfriend was so happy to see bacon at the breakfast and I had a cup of tea for the first time in years and it was delicious!! And then, they turned the music on…

We all got up and danced around for a bit. I’m always sad that this doesn’t happen more often because it’s honestly some of the most fun we ever have as a family. The kids all like to compare moves and somehow the parents always really get into and while we all know we probably look like a bunch of dorks, none of us seems to care for a second. There are just not enough opportunities for family dancing!

Then, we waited in line for what seemed like forever to go take a picture with Santa. No one could stand still because they were all just so excited and the longer we stood, the less still they were. I was so relieved when we finally made it up to Santa, because the kids had just gotten to that point of reaching their anticipation limit Рwhere they go from restless to just misbehaved.

Carter was so hesitant to get up close to Santa. They had been given candy canes and Carter shyly offered one to Santa as the other kids tried to push him in closer to get picture ready. Everyone took their place around Santa and the kids, all like little professional models, turned to the camera with their greatest smiles and it was such a nice little moment for us. Especially The Boyfriend, who had never experienced the whole first-visit-with-Santa thing.

We went down to Mom’s immediately after the breakfast, which was way earlier than we normally go down for Sunday dinners, which means that I watched more football today that I ever have in my entire life! After filling up on breakfast, we were being served a great lunch/dinner and tons of appetizers and having a generally great time – save for a few little arguments here and there – which isn’t an abnormal occurrence when you get two pretty strong-minded Scorpios in a room ūüėČ

The day absolutely tuckered us all out though, completely. Kenzie fell asleep at Mom’s. Then, when we got home, both the parents ended up dozing off on the couch as Carter curled up in blankets on floor and fell asleep. Kaeidyn went to bed almost a whole hour earlier than her bedtime. The only one who didn’t seem massively exhausted from our adventures today was Keirnan.

#FridayFavorites: For the Week of November 20 – 27

#FridayFavorites

Ever wanted to be able to see what I’m up to all over the web without actually having to go all over the web? Well, now you can with #FridayFavorites. Join me every Friday to see my favorite finds and posts over the last week.


Favorite Tumblr Find

Everything you find on my Tumblr will be absolutely NSFW and totally intended for adults only! But here’s my favorite PG-13 find from this week and be sure to check out my¬†#TumblrFavorites posts.

View Original Post on Tumblr
View Original Post on Tumblr

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Favorite Google+ Update

We spent almost two weeks without internet and it was definitely not cool! And even though it’s been a week since we’ve been back online, I still kinda feel like this…

Circle Me on Google+


Favorite Song

A little bit of a throwback. There aren’t many country artists I listen to and almost all of them, I can thank Alfie for knowledge of them. But this song makes me happy whenever I’m sad.

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 Favorite Tweet

I think that Miley’s face in the second picture speaks a thousand words.

https://twitter.com/dropoutofschool/status/630836272903421953

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Favorite YouTube Video

I know that I’ve shared this video somewhere prominent before, but it’s so good, that I’ll continue to share it over and over, because I really do love it so very much!

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Favorite Posts

In case you might’ve missed them over the last little while, here’s my favorite posts from around here over the last week…

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Well, that’s my #FridayFavorites.

I encourage you to follow me wherever you are and if you have favorites that are different than mine, let me know what you loved in the comments below! And be sure to join me next Friday for another installment of #FridayFavorites – what will I find?

#TheSims4 – Builds in #MagnoliaPromenade: The Picture Place

The Picture Place - Exterior
The Picture Place - Front
The Picture Place – Front

The Picture Place

Quaint and beautiful black photography studio with small outdoor painting decks. Includes two bathrooms (in the basement) and a great deal of seating for your Sims.

Lot:

JF&S Clothiers in Magnolia Promenade

Lot Type:

Retail

Lot Size:

20 x 20

Value:

$66, 942

The Picture Place is a small photo studio. Surrounding one end of the building is an intricate fountain consisting of domes and streams. The other end of the studio is surrounded by a porch with lots of seating for customers.

Inside, on the main level, is a tiny reception area where your Sims are able to purchase a wide assortment of cameras. The rug consists of 13 different pieces to give it quite a fun shape and guests can enjoy the fireplace while they listen to some sweet tunes.

The Picture Place - Photo Studio
The Picture Place – Photo Studio

Of course, it isn’t a photo studio with some equipment. Separated from the reception area by some awesome room dividers, your Sims can get their pictures taken (or take some of their own) in this area overlooking the fountains outside.

From the porch outside, Sims can access the two bathrooms downstairs. They come with a shower, seating, toilet and sink and a locker for changing outfits. Again, throughout the whole design of this space, you’ll see my obsession with symmetry shining through, so both bathrooms are designed the same.

Packs Used

You can find The Picture Place on The Sims 4 Gallery. I invite you to download it and place it in your own worlds. If you end up changing things up, I’d love to see what you come up, so please post links to your changes in the comments below. And while you’re at it, be sure to follow me by searching for the Origin ID: ValerieRayne13.

TO DO: Sex in the Great Outdoors

This post is from The List and is intended for adults 18+.

As a young-ish teenager without a bed to hump on, it was common and frequent that the great outdoors became my first boyfriend and I’s favorite place to get freaky. Blowjobs thigh-deep in snow or feet knocking on branches from the bushes around us, abandoned stairwells lit by the moon or wide open fields where gentle kisses were exchanged.

Part of it was necessity. If we wanted to have sex, we had to have it outdoors, because we definitely weren’t allowed to be having it indoors! With no bed to hump on, we took the streets, during and after school hours and traveled our little northern city in search of the perfect fuck spot.¬†As a teenager, I thought the only reason we did it was necessity. I know now that a big part of it was excitement surrounding the fear of getting caught.

I was caught, once (assuming we’re not counting all the times we were caught doing things that aren’t sex – oral, vaginal or anal – but verge very closely to it). I got over it really quickly.

As a slightly older teenager/young adult, I had a bed to hump on but sometimes, the moment just called for spontaneous sex. As a new/newer Mom and with a relationship that was chaotically swinging out of control, when the opportunity for sex presented itself (even if it was at 3 AM in the morning… After a girl called you disgusting… ¬†And the whole bar saw your thong because your skirt ripped up the back) you took it (even if it was on the steps of a church), because you never knew when that window might open again.

Almost all of the things I’ve done, sexually speaking, with The Boyfriend, I’ve done with boyfriends before him. Obviously, the experiences were entirely and completely (and I mean, ENTIRELY) different. But, one thing The Boyfriend and I have never done that any of my other boyfriends have is have outdoor sex. Car sex, we’ve had (good times). Pressed-up-against-a-window sex, we’ve had. But never have we ventured out into the wild for an encounter. Always been just outside of the outdoors. Not even a blowjob in the park!

And it’s not for lack of amazing places to have outdoor sex. On almost every outdoor walk we’ve taken as a couple, it’s like we’re sex spot hunters on the prowl. We name off great little nooks and crannies all around us and it’s probably the biggest reason why every summer we love to go on so many walks – lots of fantasizing. And I know it’s not for a lack of interest. As described above, I’m obviously down and The Boyfriend has always said that he’d love to do it. I guess the biggest hindrance is likely opportunity, especially being that I can only remember a couple walks that we took without kids along.

There are a lot of places and ways that I’d like to have outdoor sex, including (but not limited to):

While I’m Camping

I’m not a big fan of camping and I’ve never gone and had a good time camping. I hate all the things about camping, especially nighttime surrounded by nature. However, I’ve always always always wanted to give a blowjob at a campfire and have loud sex in a tent under the stars!

Surrounded By Trees

My favorite thing about walking through forests is picking out spots where there’s a little cluster of trees almost forming a room among the mossy mounds. Not far off the path through the woods but deep enough to hide nude humans.

On a Park Bench

Just a regular ole park bench quickie, nothing fancy.

At The Beach

I know, it’s so clich√©. And in reality, I’d be hard-pressed to do this one for fear of sand entering my vagina. But every time I see a porn with sex on the beach, it is honestly such a huge turn on. The waves, the water, the sun – it just sounds so good!

On The Side of the Road

You know Р you go on a long ride somewhere. You have to pull over to stretch your legs. You get out your door and lean up against the side of the car. He comes around visibly aroused and when he turns you around and slams you up against the door, BLAM! On the side of the road!

On a Hill

Not a super steep one, just a gentle rolling one. Preferably looking out over nature – more hills, even just grass. First with our feet facing towards the bottom of the hill, then with our feet facing up to the top. There’s this perfect hill across the street from our house, but I couldn’t see either of us being brave enough to conquer it!

On a Roof

And not just any roof, but a roof on a really tall building.

In the Snow

I want to be warm or have extreme warmth (like a fire and hot chocolate) to return to, but a sexy meeting in our snowsuits or a gloved-hand handjob could be a lot of fun. And the activity is sure to help with the whole keeping me warm thing.

In the Rain

It’s raining, it’s pouring and all I hear is moaning! And, I want to have sex in all the different types of non-destructive rains, like the soft rain on a sunny day or the first heavy downpour or the big gloppy wet rain or the near-slush early spring.

In a Parking Lot

Everyone’s going about their thing, they’re not going to notice the two people on the far side of the lot going at it, right?¬†We’d have to start with barely busy lots and work our way up to more crowded, I think.

When the Sun Rises and Sets

To be outdoors, on your back, while the sun rises and/or sets, with your lover blissfully pounding away just seems like a beautiful experience to me.¬†Especially if you consciously choose to be aware of that rising/setting sun during the encounter. I think it’d be precious.

Under the Stars

Again, a degree of consciousness would add that extra bit of special to this experience. It could end up being really romantic and intimate, especially under the vastness of twinkling darkness. Ideally, as far away from city lights as possible!

Keep in mind that this list only includes outdoor locations, not public spaces – that’s for a whole other post! And, in a perfect world, these wouldn’t be once-in-a-lifetime spur-of-the-moment occurrences. They would be sought after adventures that added that extra something to our sex life.

So, tell me, where are some other places or ways that you could have sex outdoors? Ever done any of the above or wanted to do any of the above? What do you think are some things to keep in mind when you’re having sex outdoors? Should you plan ahead or should it be spontaneous. Leave your thoughts about sex in the great outdoors in the comments below!

#TumblrFavorites – Fall 2015

#TumblrFavorites

Valerie Rayne Tumbles is a not-safe-for-work adults-only Tumblr that I created¬†probably over a year ago now. I dedicate at least one day a week to checking in on my Tumblr and over the years have found some really amazing pieces. Today, I’d love to share my #TumblrFavorites¬†for¬†Fall 2015¬†with you!


#TumblrFavorites for November

See My Top 5 Tumblrs: November 2015


It’s still early in November, but after following a number of new-to-me Tumblrs, I’m sure that this month is going to fill up quickly. So far, here’s some of my favorites for this month!

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132324885451

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132324894251/whennightclosesin-robert-c-cochran

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132324699821/annantan-nuit-mon-amie-sois-ma-tendre

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132324952731

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132324943621/oldalbum-by-robert-farber

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132325548111/kinkupdates-electrosluts-trick-or-treat-19

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132324661486/jasminpussy-love

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132324795246/mau-indy

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132324516626

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132325604841/nitratediva-claudette-colbert-in-the-infamous


#TumblrFavorites for October

See My Top 5 Tumblrs: October 2015


October was an active month for me on Tumblr and I found a huge selection of Tumblrs with amazing erotic art, which just fills my heart with so much joy Рeven more joy than porn!

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132199015646

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/131145113601/visualobscurity-valerie-galloway

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132200336101/mau-indy

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/131144682516/mau-indy-danielerebecchi-valerie-knox

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132199192736

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/132200290491

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/130941227486

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/131403315706/iglovequotes-httpiglovequotesnet

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/130620918296

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/130620899511/flensburgpaar-october-06-2015

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/130940349161

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/130320574476/flensburgpaar-october-02-2015


#TumblrFavorites for September

See My Top 5 Tumblrs: September 2015


You could say that September was my black-and-white obsession month, as a large portion of my reblogs were black-and-white photos and .GIFs.¬†It just looks so sensual. Here’s a few posts that weren’t B&W.

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/129476357631/trepol-peter-fendi

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/129476383071/lifepornography-felicien-rops-the-shower-1881

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/128166149656

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/129476350946/a-male-gaze-swan-by-j-young

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/129476214601

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/130251758601/erosisaman-richard-macdonald-erosisaman

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/129477311356

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/129477294336

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/128547112076/do-it

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/130251650796/mistresseva-eroticaandmore-by-jdarnell

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/129945195766/ganymedesrocks-georg-vilhelm-pauli-1855

http://valerieraynetumbles.tumblr.com/post/129103951776/symes4u-ribbons-of-desire

Well, there you have it!

3 months, over 1000 posts in total and I just narrowed down 36 of my favorites!

If you like what you’ve seen here, be sure to like this post and then head over to my Tumblr, Valerie Rayne Tumbles, and follow me there to see new posts and reblogs. I’ll let you know on Twitter when I update so follow @ValerieRayne13 for that.

Which image stood out to you or was your favorite from November? October? September? Are you on Tumblr and think by this collection of images that I should definitely be following you? Leave a comment below with a link and your thoughts! 

Internet Detox

It took way longer than I would’ve liked, but finally (and I type that with a massive sigh of relief), we have internet again.

The last week and a half/two weeks of our life seriously dragged on endlessly. The first four days were the most brutal, especially for the kids who complained relentlessly about their boredom, even though the parents were working hard to entertain them. We bothered Grandma and overstayed our welcome on more than one occasion just so that we could get a few minutes break from the constancy of their complaining.

By day five, we had kinda started to relax about it, it wasn’t so overwhelming. The kids had finally realized that they were going to have to deal with their boredom and eventually the boys spent more and more time consumed in their lego sets and Kaeidyn picked up some yarn and started finger knitting again.

I don’t think we truly went a full two weeks without internet, because we were able to check in on it when we went places with WiFi, but it was still a serious shock to the system to not just have immediate access. One day, we’ll do it by choice instead of inconvenience. That way it feels more like cleansing rather than detoxing.

I think I was most surprised when, on the first day with internet back, the only thing that got used was YouTube on the TV. Nary a computer or online game nor a single tweet went out that day! And we watched fail videos with the kids, because we’re suckers for ’em.

Then, The Boyfriend had to go to work, but the kids were wide awake and ready to party. So, we fired up the karaoke which hasn’t been used in forever and a day. An hour later, all the boys were beat. Kenzie had had an upset stomach, Carter was feeling tuckered out from running all over the place all day and Keirnan had danced hard during his serenading. The former two went up to bed, the latter fell asleep on the couch and Kaeidyn and I spent the remainder of the night binging on Grey’s Anatomy.

The next day, everyone seemed to have never experienced the purge. It’s as if we never went a day without internet and everyone has fallen right back into the exact same constant connectedness. The Boyfriend got a video game that he’s been waiting awhile for, and so has been blissfully swept up in Star Wars: Battlefront and all the boys have followed his lead entirely. Kaeidyn’s been all too happy to veg on YouTube with my phone. I, on the other hand, have sat most of the time¬†staring blankly at my computer. Just kinda not sure where to start first.

These next few days will be all about reconnecting. Which only really sucks, because starting tomorrow, the whole week needs to be dedicated to cleaning. I have been making a mental to-do list of all the things I want to get done this week for awhile now and I’ve officially gone through every room with the most critical of eyes. And being that The Boyfriend is on a week of holidays, it’s the perfect time to teamwork and power through the lack of motivation I always seem to feel about cleaning.

In other news, my brother is moving back to Red Deer. He honestly doesn’t seem as crazy as everyone was making him sound – sounds like a lot of the problem was specifically with our Dad. Today he’s spent a huge chunk of the day at our house and I haven’t seen a single symptom – he’s been engaged, talkative (and not once only to himself) and according to him, he’s still taking his meds – so my worry with him is dramatically eased for the moment. It sounds like he’s coming back here with a plan in mind and like he’s ready to do what he needs to do, so now I get to be supportive sister, instead of worried sister. I like that more!

The boys over the last two days have given me a bunch of new gray hairs! They have just been a little out of control. I think that I understand why, especially being that they’re not spending as much time running around outside now that it’s started to get cold. They seem to spend the daytime being relatively decent but then dinnertime hits and they all get WAY out of control. Screaming, rough housing almost to the point of injury, constantly picking on and bugging each other, literally crawling and jumping over all the furniture…

I feel like it’s been many years that I’ve felt this level of irritation with them. I was having so much fun in the hardcore appreciation of my children mode and while I obviously still do, it’s not nearly as glaringly obvious as it was, even as little as a month or so ago. They feel like toddlers again, 2 or 3 year olds. Just incapable of listening, edging on disrespectful, always getting into crap, where you feel like pulling your hair out and locking yourself in the bathroom to cry is a normal daily occurrence.

I was preparing for Kaeidyn to be the next thing I would have to worry about. Puberty, menarche, resting bitch face (which she has already mastered!), door-slamming, suspensions, losing her virginity. That’s what I thought I was supposed to be preparing for. But apparently, I should’ve been preparing for my super prepubescent group of boys turning into terrible toddlers again – because I can tell you, I wasn’t prepared and it has hit me like a ton of bricks.

And you’d think, with me already having gone through the toddler years (four times!), that I’d have some idea of how to deal with them when they’re out of control – but in the moment, I literally have no idea. I’m quick to respond the way I don’t want to respond, I’m slow to come up with any type of disciplinary action and I’m even slower at implementing or enforcing that discipline (and The Boyfriend will tell you that I don’t at all).

However, we did find out something about Kenzie this week, during his emotional rollercoasting. He had mentioned to The Boyfriend a while ago that he would like to create a YouTube channel. So, on one of the days that he was being semi-rotten, I joked that if he kept being terrible he wouldn’t get a YouTube channel. The water works were immediate and streams of tears rolled down his cheeks. After he had collected himself and calmed down a little, he got up and started cleaning and tried really hard to be an angel the rest of the night (although the brothers made it hard…). So now, every time he’s getting out of hand, I give him “the look” and ask sternly, “You want a YouTube channel?” and he immediately takes me very seriously.

Of course, him wanting a YouTube channel spawned the idea into every kid’s head and we spent an entire night with pens and paper jotting down ideas for videos that each of them want to do. Kaeidyn’s got quite a few ideas and she’s been so cute setting up schedules and making logo designs. Kenzie has a general idea of what he’d like to do but it sounds like he’s not really sure where to go after that or what he’s really wanting to do. Keirnan and Carter have no ideas whatsoever, but they definitely want to be included in the whole thing – preferably as first player!

Add to all that, The Boyfriend’s gamer-related plans for himself, and I’m getting to share my blog-a-holic knowledge left and right. I’m actually learning that I know a lot more than I thought I did. So now, there’s all this knowledge and all these ideas floating around all over the place, and no one seems to be taking any real action towards everything – and is it terrible that I’m incredibly delighted by this?!?

I’ve never shared this itchy sweater with anyone, and I’m loving every minute of it!!